Follow Through

Follow through. It's not just for tennis apparently.

So I am sticking with tennis for now. I am really enjoying it and have just forced myself to ignore my inhibitions about what wiggles and jiggles and ripples when I chase a ball on the court. I care but I don't care. Underneath it all, I am still quite conscious of what others think of me, of the distinct possibility that watching me run grosses them out or makes them laugh or invites their pity. But I can't let those people (real or imagined) and thoughts as mean as the ones I think to myself - I can't let their opinions be more important that my health. I can't let the possibility that someone might laugh make it okay for me to stay unhappy and unhealthy. I have days where I really knock this home and feel its truth in my core. Then I have days where I am totally ruled by the what ifs. I guess long term the goal is to have more days of not caring about the what ifs than caring. Whew.

I could not be doing this without your support and encouragement. I hope I can encourage and inspire any of you who need it.

Hey, don't you just love the total dorkiness of these pictures?