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Wednesday, May 31, 2006

Here we goooo...



Well, I guess this is as good a place to start as any, you know, the last time I wasn't fat. The story is this: I am going to be horrifyingly vulnerable, expose myself completely here and hope to get some support from people in the same boat (or even a boat next door, on the same lake - or whatever).

Eight years old, bucked teeth - perpendicular to my face style. No, not real bosom, not yet, but more than a gracious plenty later. Was active, mostly happy, pretty dorky, liked fancy lunchboxes, little debbies, coveted neighbors' barbie supplies. I was, with a few thousand exceptions, normal (in a loose, relative sense of the word). So what happened? Well, I am told that these things happen when one eats more and moves less. On one hand it is just that simple and on the other, never that simple.

So now, I have this thing to do. This thing, again, simple on one hand, gloriously complicated on the other, is to lose 100 pounds. I have a small start (meaning, I don't have to lose more than that because I have already dropped a few) and am stuck now. I was thinking I would be more inspired with an audience and hopefully could do some inspiring of my own.

Baby steps will accomplish this. Changing meals, walking to work. And home from work. And anywhere I can. Thought for the evening: on walking home. If you have never felt the burn of hot sweaty thighs rubbing in a friction frenzy, feel free to drop off the face of the earth. As for me, I will go experience a little of it now. Imagining how ants must feel when the cruel bully focuses the sun on their hill through a magnifying glass. hot hot hot. rash. burn baby burn. Just tell me it's alllll worth it. It is. Tomorrow, I begin the public humiliation of one soon-to-be lulicious lu.

3 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

Ok you have inspired me to inspire you! I have a similar story to share. I certainly cannot compare myself and/or my experiences to you (walking a mile in one's shoes and all that) however, I must preface my comment with the fact that you, Lucia, are one of the most charming and attractive people I know. Alas, someone can tell you all day long how funny and charming you are and maybe that can make up for the fact they did not comment on a physical attribute? My point? My inspiration? Oh yes, I did have one!

I gave birth to my first (and probably only child - unless some cute little Nicaraguan girl with good genes and relativley no stds gets knocked up and wants to sell her baby) 16 months and 5 days ago. I started off at 160 lbs. the most I have ever weighed and the minute I found out I was pregnant I gained another 20 lbs. - just for good measure. When I hit the ol' deuce (200 lbs.) I demanded the doctor keep that f*cking vital to herself and her skinny little clipboard! The day I gave birth to Miles I weighed 216 lbs. Miles weighed 7 lbs. 15.2 ozs and the day after he was born I weighed 218 lbs. - dude I was never really good at math but what the f*ck??

Ok before you say...my gawd Brittany you were pregnant! for goodness sakes - you were giving birth and life to another human being that lived inside of you! It is ok to gain weight when you are pregnant - maybe so - but I still gained weight and I lost it! (...heads up inspiration is coming your way!)

Lucia, something has gotta' click in your mind THAT YOU WILL DO THIS and it has gotta feel different than any other time that you have tried to loose weight. From your blog and testimony it sounds as though something has clicked. I am probably not going to be able to tell you anything that you have not heard or tried or know but I am going to tell you what worked for me!

(1) Hold yourself accountable.
(2) Do something active everyday - do not use the words: workout or diet! I prefer the terms "lifestyle change" and "program".
(3) Keep a diary or a calendar of what you did that was active - I had a calendar (and still do) - it is my goal to fill that month up with something ACTIVE everyday. I always felt good about my fat little self if I knew I had done something active - "I'd be like - yeah, I'm fat but I walked around the block today - so back off!"
(4) SWITCH IT UP - don't do the same activity everyday. Your body is extremly efficient and adapts to any "physical stress" you put on it - hence the fat aerobics instructor phenomenon.
(5) Drink LOTS OF WATER - make sure your pee runs clear. This with the understanding that you don't drink sodas - diet sodas do not count - they are poison!!!
(6) Don't eat anything that has artifical flavors, coloring or anything WHITE!
(7) Cut back on the alcohol - BLASPHMEY!!! Boy that was a tough one but dammit it works!
(8) Don't put yourself in a position to fail. Plan ahead do not get caught without food. Crazy? No! Bring your lunch and a snack. Don't let yourself get hungry - eat several small meals frequently - this will boost your metabolism. DON'T EAT LIKE A SNAKE!
(9) Let the reward of vanity come later! DON'T DO THIS FOR LOOKS - DO THIS FOR YOUR HEALTH! Honestly, if someone was chasing you could you truly run away? Can you carry 4 bags of groceries up 4 flights of stairs? Do you have to call a man into move or lift something? Do you have heart disease in your family?
(10) Reward yourself with massages and facials - not food!

From the day Miles was born til now I have lost 63 lbs.! It did not happen over night. It was a pound here and there - three steps forward two steps back...but the thing that kept me going was that I wanted to be able to play with my boy. I want to grow old and I want the quality of my life to be good.

Take care of yourself. You can do this is if you want to!
Lots of love and support,
Brittany B. Fickling

9:11 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Lu, I'm one of your biggest fans and throughout our wonderful friendship, I've tried to convey that I love you no matter what. More importantly to me loving you is you loving you no matter what.

I'm incredibly proud of your taking this step - to tackle your challenge head on - and I'm always here when you need me.

Please please please notice one positive a day and focus on it. It can be something as small as the shade of your right iris or as enormous as the size of your heart. It pains me to read you criticizing yourself.

To repeat - YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL - inside and out and I have every confidence you will reach the number you desire.

BIG LOVE, SUPPORT and HUGS.
c

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